Wednesday, March 12, 2008
our 4years and 10th monthsary just passed....... war kami ngayon. reasons nia?
1. i dont text/call him that often
2. i dont ask permission to him anymore
3. i shop a lot
4. i wear daring (for him) clothes na
5. i make sumbat all the gastos to him
6. i basically have changed and as he puts it, "hindi na ikaw yung diane na minahal ko dati......."
my reasons for doing so?
1. i am soooooooooooooooooo busy at school, Thesis, The Scholastican
2. i enjoy being with NERDS more often nowadays
3. i relieved my life being single by wearing what i want to wear and basically by going out on gimiks
4. i had fallen for another guy for 5 months last year..........
i know. i cheated on him. and this is my confession.
i wont go into the details on how we met how it became "us" and how it ended. what i would have to say is that it was just for fun... for the sake of bragging about having another guy in my life.. maybe it made me felt "wanted" again... since adrian had not been showing me that for the longest time...........
i dunno.. we just grew cold.......like everything is just "nakasanayan" or habitual... parang wala nang growth.. actually ever since naman, wala na talagang growth eh.....siya lang ang nag-grow.....
kaya nung nagkaroon ng chance...... to fall in love again... even thought i know i will get hurt in the end....... i still chose to give in...dumating yung time na.. talagang pagkasama ko si adrian.. siya parin nasa isip ko......yung tipong okay lang magbreak kasi, may ibang lalaki na ako......
pero yun yung naging problem. ang usapan, walang seryosohan.. laro lang ang lahat (Although he never did say it was all for fun). he also has a girlfriend eh, pero kahit na single siya.. wala parin yon.. im not his type din naman...
kanina, umalis ako at may nakasakay ako sa jeep.. badboy look din at nagsmosmoke. hay naalala ko na naman siya. three weeks na siyang di nagtetext at sana ituloy na nia. kahit na gusto ko sya imesage sa friendster at itext (nagpalit na siya ng smart, but i still have all his contacts, even his mom's!) tinitiis ko..... kasi mali eh.. alam mo nang mali, patuloy parin.....
i know for a fact that i still long for him, di biro ang 5months na araw2 gabi2 mo katxt diba? may ilang dates din kami together at most of them were very memorable.... hay ewan.
i miss u glen, but i guess.. thank you for not contacting me anymore.. really.. im dead serious.. im thanking u for saying that i should give all my love and attention to adrian, the guy whom all of these are due... you are definetely right..
i just thought u were the one who would rescue me from this lonelines (shocks, am i sounding emo here?)
now i can say that i dont want him anymore.
sometimes, it takes us to see the wrong first to be able to see the right. and i have found all the right in adrian. ewan bulag na naman siguro ako....
i want adrian to be with me for the rest of my life... but i am conditioning myself that i should open my options for other partners...
specifically those na
1. Walang financial problem (ako naman gagastusan)
2. has good education
3, makakasundo ko sa isang bagay na hindi ko pwede itype dito...
4.open minded, adventurous like me, sociable and will support all my plans
5. may kaya pero hindi pasosyal...
6. communicates better than me in english
7. loyal (katulad ni adrian)
8. chinito
9. May car (preferably, kasi may car ako eh, tapatan nio nman)
10. at........ hmmmm sana mahilig sa music, or may fashion sense (Emo fashion sana! shet!)
pero miss ko din sillyness namin ni Adrian.. like yung mga ganitong moments.....
chillax lang sa bahay nila
SEE
SAW
